To Tinder or not to Tinder .. I vote no

So a couple of weeks I decided to join Tinder, yes don't laugh, I did, and I'm not sure why (I am currently deleting it) but the lines that people say are quite creative. But I did notice something a lot of guys struggle to hold a conversation, other than the basic 'Hi how are you?" to me I love to talk about well everything, its impossible sometimes to get me to shut up especially if I'm on a lengthy chain of thought, my friends can confirm this, I'm pretty sure i have sent most of them long assed texts about something I was thinking about. I love to discuss what books, tv shows, hobbies people have, I like to talk about pets animals, goals for the future. Basically I love to talk, to me its a very good way to get to know someone. When I do eventually shut up its generally honestly because I'm annoyed by something and I honestly can't find a nice way to say what i'm feeling so I tend to remain silent. As my mother taught me if you don't have anything nice to say its better not to say anything at all.

Anyways it seems now I think about it more and more that maybe some generations have got lost in technology and the art of writing or talking face to face ? everything is either said by text message or snap chat, I miss writing letters, or lengthy emails, I'm pretty sure this is why I love writing so much.

Back to my point though, I am sure other people have noticed, tinder yes I suppose is a great way to meet people you wouldn't normally meet in life, but I wanted to see if there was that connection, but I'm honestly I didn't find the connection I was looking for, which I honestly expected, I just though why not I'm young might as well take a shot hahaha, what have I got to lose by trying. I know it's worked for so many people and that's incredible. To me I still maybe want that romantic connection, someone who will cook for me ( I love to cook but its always nicer when someone cooks for you) be ok with the fact I'm slight crazy (Thank you Epilepsy) who will love the fact that I go to a book store and come back with 35 books, will laugh at the fact I tend to dance around my apartment in my pjs and walk my dog in my pjs all of the time. Someone who will go running with me and hike and do all the outside activities I love. Will understand that I have a lot of dark days, and its hard to open up about them but will support me anyway. Who will not be bothered by the fact I'm Epileptic because I think a lot of people would be put off by that fact, because they don't actually understand the illness and many tend to think its not real or a joke or you are possessed by the devil. Which I may act devilish sometimes but I am not possessed by the devil. I just want to be able to be my normal dorky bookworm, tv binger, sporty self around them, also will not be bother by the fact as soon as I see a cute dog I turn into a silly mess and want to cuddle the dog, or always wanting to adopt a puppy that is fluffy. I even get silly over cute kittens, even though I am not a cat person, I am currently taking care of kittens and I end up bottle feeding them and cuddling them till they go to sleep. And I cry every time I see an dog die in a movie or tv show, and it bothers me more than the characters dying, I am an utter soft touch for cute & fluffy things. I will most likely end up as that crazy dog lady hahaha.

Wow now I'm actually reading this back I'm describing a mix of Luke and Jess from Gilmore Girls haha who doesn't love that show. Still I guess I'm slightly old fashioned because I know what I want in the future, and I don't want to settle for anything less, I just want someone who I am able to build something with, and who will value me as much as I value them. I think I'm maybe just to in love with the relationship Luke and Lorelai have on Gilmore Girls hahaha if only he was an actual person hahaha. I guess I just have to stick to binge watching Gilmore Girls to get my Luke and Jess fix.